I meet mistress about 4-5 months ago. She seemed to have a very special insight into cross dressing and actually wanted to establish an understanding of me and a relationship.
Once she understood me, she told me she was going to turn me into her feminine girly girl. Did I believe her? Of course not, but it made for a nice fantasy to think about. How could a woman online do that to me? Not possible.
I’ve been cross dressing my entire life since I was 10-12 years old. I kept that side of me locked up and only my wife knew of that. She tried playing that way but didn’t enjoy it. So I kept that side of me tightly bound, gagged and locked away. “She” was a total prisoner unless I felt the need to let her come and play (mentally or physically) to relieve stresses and pressures for me.
After working with mistress for about 2+ months, my wife’s acceptance of my playing online,and those desires deep inside me, it happened on June 1st. I realized that inside of me is a very feminine girl. She was free within me and has been for every single day since then. Just one night, she got very quite and seemed to be gone. I begged her to come back. Yes, I now need that girl free and with me at all times.
So yes, inside of me is a girl who loves to dress and think quite feminine. She may be 40% of me or 60% of me, it doesn’t matter( probably more than 50% if you have to know). Funny(healthy) thing my association with embarrassment and humiliation was no longer tied to feminization. It absolutely exists but it’s part of my submissive side
So I dress as a girl because I like to dress as a girl. Yes, I LOVE to dress this way.
I’m a submissive (partly the male side) because I want to be spanked, tied up, or disciplined. It’s fun.
Embarrassment, control, and helplessness, it’s all part of being a slave to another and also exciting.
So yes, mistress has turned me into her very feminine, girly, girl.
I’m a lucky happy girl.