The total, uncontrollable turn-on.

I am a feminized male. I love dressing in woman's clothing. It is an incredible turn-on that I cannot resist. I want to be displayed in front of females. I want them to see me in my dress

I am a feminized male. I love dressing in woman’s clothing. It is an incredible turn-on that I cannot resist. I want to be displayed in front of females. I want them to see me in my dress

Add to this my love of female domination, control, discipline and punishment.  I want her to spank me, tie me up, humiliate, control, and punish me.  Her maid, her secretary, her pussy slave, kept in orgasmic denial by her power over me. This and more…..much much more. 

A feminized male slave dressed from head to toe to serve his female superior

A feminized male slave dressed from head to toe to serve his female superior

 

 

Last chance to shop at Frederick’s of Hollywood store? Do I dare do what I am thinking?

Oh, I should not do what I am thinking.  But my submissive and cross-dressing desires are overwhelming me.  I do not think, I can resist them.  They have me so strongly, powerfully and intensely in their grip.   

Frederick’s of Hollywood is closing 33% of their retail stores.  I am sure some in my area will be closed. I love Frederick’s selection and have since I was a young teenage boy.  So I definitely need to shop at the store again before they close the stores in my area.  So big deal. Why am I saying I should not do this?

Because after I shop, I have developed this need to hand the sales assistant a introduction card.  Yes, it really excites me and it also does serve to educate the sales assistants or perhaps tweak their curiosity.

I have never developed the courage to hand her the card before shopping but promised myself I would. So with the store closing it will be now or it never happen.   And what happens at Frederick’s doesn’t stay at Frederick’s(it is not Las Vegas), I also apply that to Victoria’s Secret shopping.

Now, since this could be my last live shopping trips to Frederick’s of Hollywood that deserves a special introduction card to be handed to the sales assistants when I enter the store (all of the sales assistants) and also those at Victoria’s Secret.  Oh, I should not but the desire is overwhelming me.

Here is my card.   I just ordered it.  Oh by the way, for logistics reasons my shopping trip needs to be on a Saturday.  Probably the day at the stores with the most sales assistants.  Will I really go through with it or will I get “cold feet” ?

                                                                   FRONT OF CARD

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                                                                     BACK OF CARD

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2015 – Happy, Revealing, Naughty New Year from Miss Nina Paige

Clip on the caption to expand it and make it more readable but be sure to read the rest of the blog entry after the caption.

Turned in a girl, a slave, and Mistress Samantha personal property since 2010

Turned in a girl, a slave, and Mistress Samantha personal property since 2010

My instant message to mistress this morning on 01/01/2015 to amuse, entertain, and further submit to her is “my desires to be feminized, dominated, disciplined, controlled, and enslaved BURNS and grows more intensely each year since I became your property in 2010. I cannot stop them, resist them, or ignore them. They are to be laid at your feet, at your altar of power that I kneel before knowing that you will have them burning more intently and that your training of me will continue so they will deepen more and more.

I was turned into a girl, changed into and so marked as the personal private property of Mistress Samantha in 2010. So my IM to you is  be available for all on the internet to witness where it be forever recorded”

The above is a Miss Nina Paige original image.  This caption is about 4 primary subjects as well as lot’s of secondary ones like bondage, dominant females, makeup, black silk stockings, free loose hair etc, etc, etc.  In order not to write something the length of war & peace – lets focus on the primary subjects

  1. Being stripped of all control over your feminized submissive side for real
  2. Dildo’s and why the excite Miss Nina Paige
  3. Female domination when your submissive desire is drained
  4. The WHIP

Being stripped of all control over your feminized submissive side – for real

The myth is that BDSM contracts are not enforceable.  Yes – an explicit overt BDSM contract is not enforceable.  But that’s so easy to get around.

It is called a Photo release contract.  Once you sign that contract, Mistress legally, with unconditional rights, owns the pictures of you in stockings, high heels, and a dress. They are especially effective if taken without your wearing a wig.  Immediately recognizable so that it’s no doubt that it is you wearing the dress, stockings and high heels.  Are you ready to be a poster girl of a submissive on the internet for advertising purposes?  Oh, not enough motivation to get you totally obedient?  Perhaps a supplemental list needs to be provided to Mistress, you wives email, former girlfriends, mommy, sister, former college-mates, or perhaps your secretary’s email addresses. Maybe their cellphone (text) numbers? Mistress can quickly validate that these are real email or phone accounts.  There is somebody and probably lots of people you cannot afford to have see these pictures.  So you will immediately become Mistresses obedient slave – you have truly been stripped of all ability to control and you can never change your mind.  You will do as Mistress tells you.

Admit it, the idea really excites you and turns you on. It is female domination and control – no holds barred.  She has you helpless and you will DO everything she tells you. How badly do you want to be under female domination and control? Now that you’ve read this, think and fantasize about it.  Can you ever forget or resist this?  Oh – you are just a step away. How long can your resist these thoughts now that you’ve been introduced to them?  Don’t dare take this step unless you have confidence that Mistress is going to use this only for further BDSM slavery of you.  This can be tried to be used by an unscrupulous female in ways you don’t want.  She has so much control over you now.  There must be a bond of trust between a female dominant and the slaves that she owns, possesses and controls.

Does Mistress Samantha have me under a photo release contract?  No.  Would I sign one? ABSOLUTELY without hesitation or questioning.  Our bond of trust is very, very strong.  Mistress Samantha understands my submissive, girl side so well that I can no longer control it.  She has stripped me of all control in a very different way but no less effective way.

Does she have me pose for pictures and share them with whoever she wants?

I will leave that to your imagination but I am blushing profusely.

Dildo’s and why the excite Miss Nina Paige

First my title.  I have a definite preference to be addressed as Miss.

Ms. –  that’s a symbol of liberating – no don’t want that title.

Mrs?  Perhaps one day in the future.

To be Mrs. – first I need to go to a store to be fitted for a bridal gown.  Then ceremony day.   Makeup, hair and photo’s taken by some females followed by a submissive ceremony with Mistress Samantha. Taped with maybe even signed witnesses. One needs to earn their use of the title Mrs.  Is this in my future?  Oh we shall see.  As you can tell, it is thought out and planned.  Until that day – I love my title of Miss

Now for the dildo.  This one is something I felt puzzled about with my whole life.  I have no desire, interest, or excitement related to cocks.  I don’t even masturbate by directly touching my own cock.  I have no interest in anybody sucking my cock.  Yes – you have a biological male who doesn’t want a woman to suck his cock.  Yet a strap-on dildo by a female HAS always excited me.  My attractions have always been to be sexually engaged with females only.  I like to use the label “I am all girl – all the time“.  There is no bi-side to me whatsoever.  When I am dressed as a girl, I want to have sex as a girl and with girls.  Yes – Miss Nina Paige is excited and interested in females only.  So if you want to label call me – a lesbian.  One who wants to be a pretty feminine girl with an attractive feminine woman (not somebody who has a male side).  I am who I am. I have recently began to get rather open about expressing myself on Facebook.  The assumption that most or many of us are gay or bi-sexual needs to be pushed back on.  Never assume.

So if I love being called Miss.  I love my girls name.  I know I’m much more of a girl psychologically than a boy.  So then how should I have sex?  A vibrator or a dildo of course.  In the presence and witnessed by mistress or other females if she allows it.  I am becoming an exhibitionist.  So where does the dildo go? Inside of course.  In my pussy – yes MY PUSSY.  It may not be anatomical correct but it where it is going into my pussy until I cum.

Now being forced by Mistress to eat my own cum.  Pure humiliation and submission. If you are at all like how I USED TO BE.  When I cum – I used to lose all submissive desires.  Being spoon fed your cum while tied down by Mistress has just always in my mind been perfect justice.

Female Domination when you’re submissive desire is drained

Female domination when you all turned on is really hot, exciting, alluring, and sensual.

Ah, but the lingering question that has always haunted me has been – is this true female domination?

Yes I have always been interested, intrigued, and intoxicated with being strongly dominated by a female when I don’t want to be.  Specifically after she has purposely stripped me of all desires as her preliminary preparation prior to engaging in some intense female domination activities.

Female domination is at her discretion as to when, what, and where. Submission for those she dominates is to be done when she decides and wants it – not when the submissive wants it to happen.  I find that concept to be properly, appropriately humiliating – you are to have no say in the matter whatsoever.

The WHIP

Take a good hard look at the picture of her WHIP. It is not a flogger, it is not a cat-o-nine tail, or a mere single tail whip.  It is a bullwhip – very strong designed to inflict the maximum amount of pain.  

Oh – so I must like pain and have a high threshold? No it is just the opposite – low pain threshold and I don’t handle it well.

It goes hand and hand with the section above.  Made even more intense when every ounce of submissive desire is drained.  Mercilessly whipped, welted, and marked until I loudly scream and unconditionally cry is called completely breaking the submissive. The mere site of WHIP in Mistresses hand SHOULD cause slaves to tremble and truly fear what is to come.

The whip is needed to validate, re-enforce, and solidify the respective role of mistress and her property.  Although pain, screaming, blistering, marking, and uncontrollable crying will be occurring it is mere surface of what is happening.  The real purpose of her thorough intense whipping  and the experience her property will endure from mistress is to enhance, deepen, intensify, and strengthen the emotional and psychological bound between mistress and her property. The relationship between them to tightly bind, mold, and cement into a metaphysical , transcendental and near spiritual way.  His need to be her property turned into an uncontrollable fire, passion and desire that can only be satisfied by her further even more intense domination of him.  So what appears to those who don’t understand as cruel and wanton infliction of pain could not be further than the truth.  It will be a intense deepening of his need and further burning of his desire to become more deeply enslaved to his mistress.  A submissive male or dominant female will understand what my words may not be able to adequately convey.

Female domination is not to be a game to entertain – it is a lifestyle to be ever evolving, deepening and increasing in intensity.

Final thoughts : I could spend lots more time discussing Mistresses clothes (sexy black stockings always invoke an intense reaction in me), hair, makeup, clothes, facial expression, the equipment I am to bound to, the color of the dildo.

Instead read me final 3 lines of the caption – 3 times at least.

Happy New Years Day and my 2015 resolution is to be even more deeply enslaved to Mistress Samantha in 2015.

Forced feminization

How many of my readers, would have wanted this to happen to them?  I am betting most if not all the readers desired this.You cannot resist your submissive wants, needs and desires anymore.

The girl inside of you she will not ever go away.  She will ultimately take control of you because you are a submissive to females including the one inside of you. Yes, the one who already has you in her grip, is the girl inside of you. She is to be feared because you cannot escape her. You will be broken eventually.  It is not a question of if.  It is only a question of when.

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You will never escape your fate, and destiny.

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Full Surrender

A picture is worth 10,000 words or more.  Especially on a very appropriate day, Thanksgiving evening 2014.

Stevie is now Miss Nina Paige. Turned into into a girl by Mistress Samantha. She has worn panties and stockings every day for over 4+ years because it excites and turns her on so much. She cannot resist her burning feminine desires anymore. The flames of desires have consumed her. She absolutely loves, adores, and cherishes having been turned into a girl. Her psychological transformation as well as total acceptance that she is now a girl, and will stay one forever, is very real.

Stevie is now Miss Nina Paige. Turned into into a girl by Mistress Samantha. She has worn panties and stockings every day for over 4+ years because it excites and turns her on so much. She cannot resist her burning feminine desires anymore. The flames of desires have consumed her. She absolutely loves, adores, and cherishes having been turned into a girl. Her psychological transformation as well as total acceptance that she is now a girl, and will stay one forever, is very real.  This is not a fantasy, that is the real world of Miss Nina Paige

Female Domination & Revenge

I deserve to be dominated, disciplined and punished. 

female domination and feminization

female domination and feminization

 

Fitting justice to fit my behavior, sins and crime. 

For 5 decades, I secretly dressed in woman’s clothing because it turned me on and excited me so.  I dared to wear my mother’s, sisters, wife’s clothes without their permission and approval.  I hide the fact that this really turned me on.  I suppressed, denied, and caged the side of me that had this desire.  This side was kept as my prisoner in total isolation, kept under constant supervision/control.  It was mentally bound and caged.   Yes –  the girl inside of me was constantly punished until it came time for me to CUM.  She was to serve her master.

Well, Miss Nina Paige is now free and she deserves revenge. I should be severely disciplined by Mistress Samantha to learn what it feels like to put kept in a cage. The male side that did this to Miss Paige needs to be merciless punished.  Subjected to SEVERE female domination and discipline.  A fitting punishment for placing Miss Nina Paige in a cage for 5 decades is to be put into a cage also.  Reversal of the position. Ah, but not enough.  Cumming now needs to be a punishment that is dreaded, feared, disdained, and very undesirable.  The mere word should cause me to tremble and beg for mercy.  How?  

feminized submissive kneeling for Mistress to fuck him in the ass

feminized submissive kneeling for Mistress to fuck him in the ass

Well, I dressed as a girl for 50+ years but sexually released and came like a boy.  Fitting justice is to have my ass fucked long and deep with a dildo until I cum.  If you dress like a girl, you play like a girl.  My cock belongs encased in my tiny cock cage – impossible to become erect while I rock back and forth thrusting the dildo deep and fast into my ass.  

 

Kept hot and excited with no release while I strain against my cage.   If I cum, it will be without an erection and we know where every drop of the cum will go.  Yes into my mouth to suck and swallow every drop of it.

feminized submissive in a tiny cage trading places with Miss Nina Paige

feminized submissive in a tiny cage trading places with Miss Nina Paige

That is one way – then there are ruined orgasms and feeding.  Potentially  followed by forced orgasms until I beg and plead for mercy from Mistress Samantha.

It is now my turn to be placed in the very small cage that Miss Nina Paige was kept in.

 

 

Just as cumming meant more punishment for Miss Paige – now it is time for her former captor to experience what she did.  It is only fair.  

This is what I truly deserve.  It is called female domination, revenge and justice

 

 

 

 

 

if you can resist the urge, then can you explain a few things?

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So you think you can resist dressing this way, the next time?  You cannot.  Ask yourself these questions.

  • Why do you think about doing this so often?
  • Why are you reading this blog?
  • Why are you wearing or wishing you were wearing silky lacy  panties right now?
  • Why could you not resist dressing in female attire the last time that you did?
  • Why does your biological sex organ from becoming stiff as a board and rock hard just thinking about this? 

Well this side of you, this special excitement, this desire is not going away.  You cannot control it, stop it or make it go away. It’s been that way since you were a young boy.  You know that’s the truth you try to hide. 

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Yes the desire to do this is deeply ingrained in you.  It may be suppressed for a period of time but it never goes away. Nobody changes their sexual desires and attractions.  Everybody manages them.  Denial, suppression does not work.  It will fail just like it has every other time in your past.  

It is time for you to understand, SHE is going to have HER way with you.  Whether you want to or not. You are going to be dressed as a pretty girl, time and time again.  You cannot resist or stop her. The girl inside of you – she has you in her powerful grip She always has had you in her grip and she always will.   

Time for you to be a well behaved girl.  Put on your panties, stockings, dress, and high heels NOW.  She has decided it is time for you to dress again.  You know it is.  That’s why you’re reading this blog.  The desire is building again, it will soon be too powerful to resist and you cannot stop it. 


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This is your inescapable fate, relax and get dressed.   Fight and resist if you must.  But she is going to put your back in panties, stockings, dress and high heels again.  It will happen shorty whether you try and resist or not.  She always wins and deep down inside you know it.  So be a good girl and put your pretty feminine clothes on right now. 

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