2015 – Happy, Revealing, Naughty New Year from Miss Nina Paige

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Turned in a girl, a slave, and Mistress Samantha personal property since 2010

Turned in a girl, a slave, and Mistress Samantha personal property since 2010

My instant message to mistress this morning on 01/01/2015 to amuse, entertain, and further submit to her is “my desires to be feminized, dominated, disciplined, controlled, and enslaved BURNS and grows more intensely each year since I became your property in 2010. I cannot stop them, resist them, or ignore them. They are to be laid at your feet, at your altar of power that I kneel before knowing that you will have them burning more intently and that your training of me will continue so they will deepen more and more.

I was turned into a girl, changed into and so marked as the personal private property of Mistress Samantha in 2010. So my IM to you is  be available for all on the internet to witness where it be forever recorded”

The above is a Miss Nina Paige original image.  This caption is about 4 primary subjects as well as lot’s of secondary ones like bondage, dominant females, makeup, black silk stockings, free loose hair etc, etc, etc.  In order not to write something the length of war & peace – lets focus on the primary subjects

  1. Being stripped of all control over your feminized submissive side for real
  2. Dildo’s and why the excite Miss Nina Paige
  3. Female domination when your submissive desire is drained
  4. The WHIP

Being stripped of all control over your feminized submissive side – for real

The myth is that BDSM contracts are not enforceable.  Yes – an explicit overt BDSM contract is not enforceable.  But that’s so easy to get around.

It is called a Photo release contract.  Once you sign that contract, Mistress legally, with unconditional rights, owns the pictures of you in stockings, high heels, and a dress. They are especially effective if taken without your wearing a wig.  Immediately recognizable so that it’s no doubt that it is you wearing the dress, stockings and high heels.  Are you ready to be a poster girl of a submissive on the internet for advertising purposes?  Oh, not enough motivation to get you totally obedient?  Perhaps a supplemental list needs to be provided to Mistress, you wives email, former girlfriends, mommy, sister, former college-mates, or perhaps your secretary’s email addresses. Maybe their cellphone (text) numbers? Mistress can quickly validate that these are real email or phone accounts.  There is somebody and probably lots of people you cannot afford to have see these pictures.  So you will immediately become Mistresses obedient slave – you have truly been stripped of all ability to control and you can never change your mind.  You will do as Mistress tells you.

Admit it, the idea really excites you and turns you on. It is female domination and control – no holds barred.  She has you helpless and you will DO everything she tells you. How badly do you want to be under female domination and control? Now that you’ve read this, think and fantasize about it.  Can you ever forget or resist this?  Oh – you are just a step away. How long can your resist these thoughts now that you’ve been introduced to them?  Don’t dare take this step unless you have confidence that Mistress is going to use this only for further BDSM slavery of you.  This can be tried to be used by an unscrupulous female in ways you don’t want.  She has so much control over you now.  There must be a bond of trust between a female dominant and the slaves that she owns, possesses and controls.

Does Mistress Samantha have me under a photo release contract?  No.  Would I sign one? ABSOLUTELY without hesitation or questioning.  Our bond of trust is very, very strong.  Mistress Samantha understands my submissive, girl side so well that I can no longer control it.  She has stripped me of all control in a very different way but no less effective way.

Does she have me pose for pictures and share them with whoever she wants?

I will leave that to your imagination but I am blushing profusely.

Dildo’s and why the excite Miss Nina Paige

First my title.  I have a definite preference to be addressed as Miss.

Ms. –  that’s a symbol of liberating – no don’t want that title.

Mrs?  Perhaps one day in the future.

To be Mrs. – first I need to go to a store to be fitted for a bridal gown.  Then ceremony day.   Makeup, hair and photo’s taken by some females followed by a submissive ceremony with Mistress Samantha. Taped with maybe even signed witnesses. One needs to earn their use of the title Mrs.  Is this in my future?  Oh we shall see.  As you can tell, it is thought out and planned.  Until that day – I love my title of Miss

Now for the dildo.  This one is something I felt puzzled about with my whole life.  I have no desire, interest, or excitement related to cocks.  I don’t even masturbate by directly touching my own cock.  I have no interest in anybody sucking my cock.  Yes – you have a biological male who doesn’t want a woman to suck his cock.  Yet a strap-on dildo by a female HAS always excited me.  My attractions have always been to be sexually engaged with females only.  I like to use the label “I am all girl – all the time“.  There is no bi-side to me whatsoever.  When I am dressed as a girl, I want to have sex as a girl and with girls.  Yes – Miss Nina Paige is excited and interested in females only.  So if you want to label call me – a lesbian.  One who wants to be a pretty feminine girl with an attractive feminine woman (not somebody who has a male side).  I am who I am. I have recently began to get rather open about expressing myself on Facebook.  The assumption that most or many of us are gay or bi-sexual needs to be pushed back on.  Never assume.

So if I love being called Miss.  I love my girls name.  I know I’m much more of a girl psychologically than a boy.  So then how should I have sex?  A vibrator or a dildo of course.  In the presence and witnessed by mistress or other females if she allows it.  I am becoming an exhibitionist.  So where does the dildo go? Inside of course.  In my pussy – yes MY PUSSY.  It may not be anatomical correct but it where it is going into my pussy until I cum.

Now being forced by Mistress to eat my own cum.  Pure humiliation and submission. If you are at all like how I USED TO BE.  When I cum – I used to lose all submissive desires.  Being spoon fed your cum while tied down by Mistress has just always in my mind been perfect justice.

Female Domination when you’re submissive desire is drained

Female domination when you all turned on is really hot, exciting, alluring, and sensual.

Ah, but the lingering question that has always haunted me has been – is this true female domination?

Yes I have always been interested, intrigued, and intoxicated with being strongly dominated by a female when I don’t want to be.  Specifically after she has purposely stripped me of all desires as her preliminary preparation prior to engaging in some intense female domination activities.

Female domination is at her discretion as to when, what, and where. Submission for those she dominates is to be done when she decides and wants it – not when the submissive wants it to happen.  I find that concept to be properly, appropriately humiliating – you are to have no say in the matter whatsoever.

The WHIP

Take a good hard look at the picture of her WHIP. It is not a flogger, it is not a cat-o-nine tail, or a mere single tail whip.  It is a bullwhip – very strong designed to inflict the maximum amount of pain.  

Oh – so I must like pain and have a high threshold? No it is just the opposite – low pain threshold and I don’t handle it well.

It goes hand and hand with the section above.  Made even more intense when every ounce of submissive desire is drained.  Mercilessly whipped, welted, and marked until I loudly scream and unconditionally cry is called completely breaking the submissive. The mere site of WHIP in Mistresses hand SHOULD cause slaves to tremble and truly fear what is to come.

The whip is needed to validate, re-enforce, and solidify the respective role of mistress and her property.  Although pain, screaming, blistering, marking, and uncontrollable crying will be occurring it is mere surface of what is happening.  The real purpose of her thorough intense whipping  and the experience her property will endure from mistress is to enhance, deepen, intensify, and strengthen the emotional and psychological bound between mistress and her property. The relationship between them to tightly bind, mold, and cement into a metaphysical , transcendental and near spiritual way.  His need to be her property turned into an uncontrollable fire, passion and desire that can only be satisfied by her further even more intense domination of him.  So what appears to those who don’t understand as cruel and wanton infliction of pain could not be further than the truth.  It will be a intense deepening of his need and further burning of his desire to become more deeply enslaved to his mistress.  A submissive male or dominant female will understand what my words may not be able to adequately convey.

Female domination is not to be a game to entertain – it is a lifestyle to be ever evolving, deepening and increasing in intensity.

Final thoughts : I could spend lots more time discussing Mistresses clothes (sexy black stockings always invoke an intense reaction in me), hair, makeup, clothes, facial expression, the equipment I am to bound to, the color of the dildo.

Instead read me final 3 lines of the caption – 3 times at least.

Happy New Years Day and my 2015 resolution is to be even more deeply enslaved to Mistress Samantha in 2015.

Forced feminization

How many of my readers, would have wanted this to happen to them?  I am betting most if not all the readers desired this.You cannot resist your submissive wants, needs and desires anymore.

The girl inside of you she will not ever go away.  She will ultimately take control of you because you are a submissive to females including the one inside of you. Yes, the one who already has you in her grip, is the girl inside of you. She is to be feared because you cannot escape her. You will be broken eventually.  It is not a question of if.  It is only a question of when.

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You will never escape your fate, and destiny.

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Full Surrender

A picture is worth 10,000 words or more.  Especially on a very appropriate day, Thanksgiving evening 2014.

Stevie is now Miss Nina Paige. Turned into into a girl by Mistress Samantha. She has worn panties and stockings every day for over 4+ years because it excites and turns her on so much. She cannot resist her burning feminine desires anymore. The flames of desires have consumed her. She absolutely loves, adores, and cherishes having been turned into a girl. Her psychological transformation as well as total acceptance that she is now a girl, and will stay one forever, is very real.

Stevie is now Miss Nina Paige. Turned into into a girl by Mistress Samantha. She has worn panties and stockings every day for over 4+ years because it excites and turns her on so much. She cannot resist her burning feminine desires anymore. The flames of desires have consumed her. She absolutely loves, adores, and cherishes having been turned into a girl. Her psychological transformation as well as total acceptance that she is now a girl, and will stay one forever, is very real.  This is not a fantasy, that is the real world of Miss Nina Paige

Female Domination & Revenge

I deserve to be dominated, disciplined and punished. 

female domination and feminization

female domination and feminization

 

Fitting justice to fit my behavior, sins and crime. 

For 5 decades, I secretly dressed in woman’s clothing because it turned me on and excited me so.  I dared to wear my mother’s, sisters, wife’s clothes without their permission and approval.  I hide the fact that this really turned me on.  I suppressed, denied, and caged the side of me that had this desire.  This side was kept as my prisoner in total isolation, kept under constant supervision/control.  It was mentally bound and caged.   Yes –  the girl inside of me was constantly punished until it came time for me to CUM.  She was to serve her master.

Well, Miss Nina Paige is now free and she deserves revenge. I should be severely disciplined by Mistress Samantha to learn what it feels like to put kept in a cage. The male side that did this to Miss Paige needs to be merciless punished.  Subjected to SEVERE female domination and discipline.  A fitting punishment for placing Miss Nina Paige in a cage for 5 decades is to be put into a cage also.  Reversal of the position. Ah, but not enough.  Cumming now needs to be a punishment that is dreaded, feared, disdained, and very undesirable.  The mere word should cause me to tremble and beg for mercy.  How?  

feminized submissive kneeling for Mistress to fuck him in the ass

feminized submissive kneeling for Mistress to fuck him in the ass

Well, I dressed as a girl for 50+ years but sexually released and came like a boy.  Fitting justice is to have my ass fucked long and deep with a dildo until I cum.  If you dress like a girl, you play like a girl.  My cock belongs encased in my tiny cock cage – impossible to become erect while I rock back and forth thrusting the dildo deep and fast into my ass.  

 

Kept hot and excited with no release while I strain against my cage.   If I cum, it will be without an erection and we know where every drop of the cum will go.  Yes into my mouth to suck and swallow every drop of it.

feminized submissive in a tiny cage trading places with Miss Nina Paige

feminized submissive in a tiny cage trading places with Miss Nina Paige

That is one way – then there are ruined orgasms and feeding.  Potentially  followed by forced orgasms until I beg and plead for mercy from Mistress Samantha.

It is now my turn to be placed in the very small cage that Miss Nina Paige was kept in.

 

 

Just as cumming meant more punishment for Miss Paige – now it is time for her former captor to experience what she did.  It is only fair.  

This is what I truly deserve.  It is called female domination, revenge and justice

 

 

 

 

 

if you can resist the urge, then can you explain a few things?

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So you think you can resist dressing this way, the next time?  You cannot.  Ask yourself these questions.

  • Why do you think about doing this so often?
  • Why are you reading this blog?
  • Why are you wearing or wishing you were wearing silky lacy  panties right now?
  • Why could you not resist dressing in female attire the last time that you did?
  • Why does your biological sex organ from becoming stiff as a board and rock hard just thinking about this? 

Well this side of you, this special excitement, this desire is not going away.  You cannot control it, stop it or make it go away. It’s been that way since you were a young boy.  You know that’s the truth you try to hide. 

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Yes the desire to do this is deeply ingrained in you.  It may be suppressed for a period of time but it never goes away. Nobody changes their sexual desires and attractions.  Everybody manages them.  Denial, suppression does not work.  It will fail just like it has every other time in your past.  

It is time for you to understand, SHE is going to have HER way with you.  Whether you want to or not. You are going to be dressed as a pretty girl, time and time again.  You cannot resist or stop her. The girl inside of you – she has you in her powerful grip She always has had you in her grip and she always will.   

Time for you to be a well behaved girl.  Put on your panties, stockings, dress, and high heels NOW.  She has decided it is time for you to dress again.  You know it is.  That’s why you’re reading this blog.  The desire is building again, it will soon be too powerful to resist and you cannot stop it. 


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This is your inescapable fate, relax and get dressed.   Fight and resist if you must.  But she is going to put your back in panties, stockings, dress and high heels again.  It will happen shorty whether you try and resist or not.  She always wins and deep down inside you know it.  So be a good girl and put your pretty feminine clothes on right now. 

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On Fire: Male Submissive’s Feminine Mindset, Sexual Desire, and Spanked Ass

This blog is about real life experiences unless I otherwise say so in an entry.  Well, this blog entry is all about Real Life but it is mostly about an honest true portrait of my real desires.  YES I would have done ALL of these these things and would still do them today.  Many of these things have been done with Mistress Samantha.  So some parts of this are truly aspirations and dreams to be fulfilled. Reality of real life submission is it should include your true honest thoughts and desires. Everything in this blog I wanted done and still want done.

My burning fire which will not subside is about being feminized, disciplined, dominated, controlled, and emasculated by my mommy.  Especially emasculated.  

Mommy feminizing son

Yes Mommy – I wanted you to catch me dressed in your pretty sexy and most feminine clothes.  I wanted you to PERSONALLY dress me in your clothes from head to toe down to every little feminine detail.

Yes – I started sneaking in Mommy’s clothes at around age 10.  I loved to wear mommy’s black silky panties, bra’s, slips, dresses, sheer pantyhose and her tall black patent leather high heels.  I  used to tie myself up, bound with ropes tied spread eagle to HER bed hoping she would catch me.  I wanted her to find me, to see me dressed this way and for her to dominate/control and make me dress this way from now on.                                                       

Fantasy?  No the REAL truth for all to know and see.  I have wanted this my whole life.  

I wanted Mommy to dominate, discipline, control, and feminize me from head to toe.  

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Yes I wanted the full treatment from Mommy.  I still want the full treatment from Mommy.  Dressed by Mommy in the ultimate female dress – a bridal gown.  Chained to the couch – unable to escape.  My sister watching. Waiting for mommy’s friends and our relatives to come over.  I wanted to wear a bridal dress, wear it for everybody to see.  Dressed completely from head to toe including the jewelry, nail polish and makeup.  Everything but a wig.  That’s so I can be shamed, humiliated, embarrassed by mommy in front of her and all her friends and our relatives.    

Did I really truthfully want Mommy to do this to me?  YES and I mean it !!!!

Oh the fire burns even more thinking of Mommy dominating me:

  • please mommy take me over your knee and spank me,  not for dressing in your clothes, but for sneaking into them without asking.
  • please mommy make me wear skirts, stockings and high heels at home since you caught me sneaking into your clothes
  • please mommy display me in front of all your girlfriends and every other females that knows me dressed in girls clothes
  • please mommy have your girlfriends, my sister and every female relative put me over their knee lift my skirt, pull down my panties and stockings in front of you and spank me bottom very very hard
  • please mommy I want to be your pretty baby girl.  I want Mommy to bottle fed me and to have to suck my bottle dry for mommy
Would I have wanted to be one of the boys in this picture and have Mommy do this to me?   YES - except leave off the wigs for the display.  Public ?  Perhaps this is a tad too far.  But just a tiny bit.  Tied to a pose frame in the house?  Yes, please mommy I beg, plead with you to do this to me.
Would I have wanted to be one of the boys in this picture and have Mommy do this to me? YES – except  I would want Mommy to be stricter and sterner.   Leave off the wigs for the display.  Total Public humiliation .   Yes Mommy I wanted that and still want that. I crave and burn for it to this day.  The ONLY reason I would hesitate is practical.   I would want any “do good=er” who saw me publicly punished trying to stop Mommy from doing it in private.  Once it starts it is to never stop.      

I could go on and on for hours.  

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I want to be put over the knee of other woman in front of Mommy.  My skirt lifted, panties down and spanked while Mommy watched and encouraged her to spank me harder and harder.  Yes an over the knee bare ass spanking wearing mommy’s dress, stockings, high heels  in front of mommy until my bottom is beat red.   Of course, when I do the clothes go back into place.  

 

You will wear dresses, stockings, and high heels in front of Mommy for the rest of your life.  Fast forward 25 years.  Yes I still crave and want this.
Yes I wanted Mommy’s domination and dressing in her clothes in front of her to last forever.   I wanted no way out or escape from it.  In a dress, high heels, stockings even as an adult 25 years later.   Yes, I still crave and want this.  Mistress and Mommy are now one and the same.  All my thoughts and desires are very real and ultra powerful.  Yes I want their to be significant consequences of revealing this to Mommy.    Yes Mommy use this as the mere starting point.  Yes readers – I am asking for it.  The full complete treatment including never being able to escape.   In fact, I’m not asking for it, I’m begging for it for all the world to see.  

 

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A new dawn and beginning is emerging.  I can no longer control the submissive flames and feminine desires.  They now control me.  I can no longer resist them. I HAVE to frequently wear  silky panties, sheer stockings, lacy bra’s, high heels, and dresses.  I have to continually experience being dominated, control, disciplined by women.  Yes my need Mommy to feminize, dominate, and discipline her son burns in my inner core.   Please mommy hold nothing back – you know what to do – the complete treatment, the full dose, the entire package.  Increase – significantly increase – the psychological, emotional,  and intellectual control/domination of me.  Yes – you have me publicly begging, pleading and groveling for it.  

I want to be permanently enslaved to mommy.Dressed by mommy in panties, bra’s, garter belts, stockings, corsets, pantyhose, dresses, skirts/blouses, nightgowns, high heels, lipstick, lip gloss, eye shadow, eyeliner and mascara.  Kept tied, chained, and cuffed physical to be spanked, disciplined, and punished.  

But most all Mommy to be kept in full mental and psychological domination and control by you.  I’m ready for the 1st baby step Mommy   

 

 

Forced Feminization and Discipline of the Male Slave: Turnaround Is Fair Play, Richly Deserved and Well-Earned

I really do dislike the term sissy.  My belief is that many use this term because that is an expectation of others.  I find sissy behavior in most ways to be mocking and a parody of females.  It is borderline insulting to the females almost making fun of them.  

Female domination has a significant component that consists of male emasculation.  Males are to be thoroughly completely emasculated by their female owners.  It is the treatment they deserve. Emasculation is psychological castration keeping the male submissive in continual torment and submission.  Their tormented submissive state weakened state is used by their female owners to continue the molding and breaking process. They are helplessly led further and much deeper into submission to their female owner. 

Having males dress in female attire is about taking that psychological emasculation to the next level.  It is males who decided how females should be dressed as they set the expectations.  Now the worm has turned.  What got imposed on females is now imposed by female owners on their property.  Turnaround is called perfect justice.

Ah but once a female owner takes possession of her property just as she was expected to change her name – so must her possession.  Turnaround is fair play.  This is not just a label it is who you must become since you are now her property.   I am Miss Nina Paige.  To be clear my owner does not keep me dressed as a girl with a girls name.  No, instead she has psycologically turned me into a girl.  I am Miss.  I am Nina Paige.  I am psycologically all girl all the time now.  

The standard of my behavior and mantra – it is to be the most exquisite feminine lady in all respects.  One who is evolving at all times – becoming more feminine and more ladylike each and every day.  Males “came up” with the expectation that females are to be ladies. The turnaround continues some more. 

Ah but the worm must turn some more as per the picture below.

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My owner does not allow the cock to be touched or stimulated without approval.  Masturbation is strictly prohibited.  

My owner has made it clear that a sexual reorientation program is in my future.  At some point when she decides to, the reorientation training will begin.  Sexual pleasure will only be allowed with a very deep penetration of me.  I will be reprogrammed to understand, want, crave and desire the deep strap on as the only form of sexual release.  This is not a question of if but a question of when.  

One final piece of turnaround fairness. Girls are expected to lick, suck and swallow every drop of what the cock emits,  The same is now required of Miss Nina Paige.  That training is well underway.  It is mandatory should I be given my owners permission or instruction to release. Ugh, ugh, ugh.  I don’t like it but I dare not miss one drop. 

The table have been completely turned. My owner has made it clear, I belong to her, the emasculation is just starting, my feminization has merely scratched the surface and my sexual reorientation training has not truly started. 

After 4 years of my owners training, I am truly helpless to resist, disobey or displease her. Even despite that I am only her “trainee”.  

The true training and intensity is yet to come.