This blog is about real life experiences unless I otherwise say so in an entry. Well, this blog entry is all about Real Life but it is mostly about an honest true portrait of my real desires. YES I would have done ALL of these these things and would still do them today. Many of these things have been done with Mistress Samantha. So some parts of this are truly aspirations and dreams to be fulfilled. Reality of real life submission is it should include your true honest thoughts and desires. Everything in this blog I wanted done and still want done.
My burning fire which will not subside is about being feminized, disciplined, dominated, controlled, and emasculated by my mommy. Especially emasculated.
Yes – I started sneaking in Mommy’s clothes at around age 10. I loved to wear mommy’s black silky panties, bra’s, slips, dresses, sheer pantyhose and her tall black patent leather high heels. I used to tie myself up, bound with ropes tied spread eagle to HER bed hoping she would catch me. I wanted her to find me, to see me dressed this way and for her to dominate/control and make me dress this way from now on.
Fantasy? No the REAL truth for all to know and see. I have wanted this my whole life.
I wanted Mommy to dominate, discipline, control, and feminize me from head to toe.
Yes I wanted the full treatment from Mommy. I still want the full treatment from Mommy. Dressed by Mommy in the ultimate female dress – a bridal gown. Chained to the couch – unable to escape. My sister watching. Waiting for mommy’s friends and our relatives to come over. I wanted to wear a bridal dress, wear it for everybody to see. Dressed completely from head to toe including the jewelry, nail polish and makeup. Everything but a wig. That’s so I can be shamed, humiliated, embarrassed by mommy in front of her and all her friends and our relatives.
Did I really truthfully want Mommy to do this to me? YES and I mean it !!!!
Oh the fire burns even more thinking of Mommy dominating me:
- please mommy take me over your knee and spank me, not for dressing in your clothes, but for sneaking into them without asking.
- please mommy make me wear skirts, stockings and high heels at home since you caught me sneaking into your clothes
- please mommy display me in front of all your girlfriends and every other females that knows me dressed in girls clothes
- please mommy have your girlfriends, my sister and every female relative put me over their knee lift my skirt, pull down my panties and stockings in front of you and spank me bottom very very hard
- please mommy I want to be your pretty baby girl. I want Mommy to bottle fed me and to have to suck my bottle dry for mommy
I could go on and on for hours.
I want to be put over the knee of other woman in front of Mommy. My skirt lifted, panties down and spanked while Mommy watched and encouraged her to spank me harder and harder. Yes an over the knee bare ass spanking wearing mommy’s dress, stockings, high heels in front of mommy until my bottom is beat red. Of course, when I do the clothes go back into place.
A new dawn and beginning is emerging. I can no longer control the submissive flames and feminine desires. They now control me. I can no longer resist them. I HAVE to frequently wear silky panties, sheer stockings, lacy bra’s, high heels, and dresses. I have to continually experience being dominated, control, disciplined by women. Yes my need Mommy to feminize, dominate, and discipline her son burns in my inner core. Please mommy hold nothing back – you know what to do – the complete treatment, the full dose, the entire package. Increase – significantly increase – the psychological, emotional, and intellectual control/domination of me. Yes – you have me publicly begging, pleading and groveling for it.
I want to be permanently enslaved to mommy.Dressed by mommy in panties, bra’s, garter belts, stockings, corsets, pantyhose, dresses, skirts/blouses, nightgowns, high heels, lipstick, lip gloss, eye shadow, eyeliner and mascara. Kept tied, chained, and cuffed physical to be spanked, disciplined, and punished.
But most all Mommy to be kept in full mental and psychological domination and control by you. I’m ready for the 1st baby step Mommy