Mistress has decided and instructed me to tell all of you about my last few meetings with her. Documented for all to read and see.
Am I’m embarrassed and ashamed to? Very. In fact mortified is a better word.
If you are a new reader of this blog, let me make something clear to you. I’m completely enslaved to Mistress Samantha. I’m her personal property and possession. I’m under her complete female domination, control, and discipline at all times. I cannot say No to Mistress. Everything she tells me, suggests or decides must be done without question, resistance or hesitation All of this is done in a very 21st century way – via phone, via webcam, via instant messenger, via text messages and via email.
- Over 3 1/2 years ago, Mistress told me to shave the cock/balls – I was required to be totally hairless. I told her NEVER. The cock/balls have been totally hairless for 3+ years. They will be kept hairless forever. I must have her cock/balls thoroughly shaved at all times.
- Over 3 years ago, Mistress decided that I would be wearing panties & stockings every day (24 hours a day, 7 days a week) for several months. I have never removed them. I will never be allowed to remove them. I have been in silk lace panties and sheer stockings/pantyhose every day since.
I’m her slave girl. Yes she has turned me into a girl – total complete psychological control over me. Yes – all girl all the time now. Unlike some (or much) that you read or see on the internet – that doesn’t mean attractions to male sexual organs. Quite the opposite, my attraction to the female organs is EVEN stronger as a girl. “Pussy” obsessed ? Absolutely. All girl – all the time. Think the “L” word because I am decidedly so.
Now – some of our last meetings. A combination of different forms of discipline, control, and domination. You see, Mistress has decided that I’m to be turned in her adult baby also. Her baby girl and little boy being punished by Mommy. Mommy’s little boy doesn’t get to wear a wig (at least not for long). He is to dressed head-toe except the hair. Punishment is more effective when you cannot mistake her little boy is dressed from head to toe as a girl. Yes I’m mommy’s baby and little boy whenever she decides I will be. Not only did she turn me into her baby, my pictures, video clips, and blog was shared with other adult females.
Three weeks ago, Mommy wanted me to buy baby food ( strained peas, & bananas ), baby pacifiers and a baby bottle. I was dressed from head to toe in my pink Baby Bows dress from http://www.themaidstore.com.
Yes dressed from head to toe in my pink baby bows dress sucking my pretty pink pacifier. You see Mommy’s control over me is even more powerful than Mistresses. Mommy has complete total unconditional control. Everything must be told to Mommy. Mommy’s control is all powerful — impossible to resist for even 1 split second. Yes – I’m now her adult baby girl or disciplined little boy. Mommy has me totally, powerfully, completely, helplessly in her grip. When the time came to feed me my baby food, Mommy had me spoon the baby food into a bowl. Then to my utter shock, I was told to lift my dress, drop my panties, and my stockings. I was completely mortified when Mommy told me I had to cum into the bowl of peas. I ejaculated a full amount in my bowl of baby food, mixed it and then proceeded to be spoon fed every drop of my cum soaked baby jar of peas from the bowl. What I later learned was that Mommy had filmed the entire episode. Yes – it is all on video – mommy’s feeding her baby.
On next meeting was a little different. Fully attired as her pretty, sexy girl in a tight black mini-dress from Fredericks of Hollywood with my long flowing blonde wig. Ah but I wasn’t going to escape more cum punishment. This time I had to cum in the bowl and apply it to my face and lips. Letting it dry on. I felt sick to my stomach as it dried on my face.
Our last meeting was the worse of all. Dressed in a white satin bow blouse, a black pencil mini-skirt, super high 6 1/2″ black high heels ( non platform), black stockings, and my hair styled in a bun which had been done at Hair Craft salon by M. ( for new readers – yes with me in the chair wearing it). Mistress required me to cum into my hands, and lick every drop of cum from my hands but while I was doing this her cock was required to be fully submerged in a bowl of freezing ICE and ICE water. I screamed and begged for Mistress to let me take her cock out of the freezing bowl but she would not. Oh – I shutter at just thinking about it again. Sick to my stomach licking the cum off the fingers while her cock was totally frozen. Ultimately, I was broken to tears before Mistress allowed me to remove her cock from its frozen prison.
We have entered a new stage, one where I’m being taught to totally hate the way I used to cum. Pavlov’s dog. Yes – when I used to cum, my feminine desires were then tormented, suppressed, controlled and locked into a cage. These desires used to serve my cock. Now I stay dressed as the girl I am afterwards. Cumming the old way is to be severe punishment. Something not to be desired, but to be truly feared, disliked, and despised.
The only acceptable, pleasurable way to cum will be with a PINK vibrator or a dildo thrust in.out of my ass until I cum. I am a slave girl and I will cum as one whenever mistress or mommy decides that I’m to be rewarded. The old way will be used to punish, degrade, discipline and make the practice totally hated.
Trust me, I hate and despise the old way already.